Love #2
I am just a fool, but I know others can learn from what I have learned.
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I have stated how much I value love. Written here is how I am trying to love others.
I have in the past let me emotions rule me. I have ignored undeniable truths.
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I thought I became someone I was incapable of loving.
I could still love myself I just had to stop doing such unlovable things. The first step in doing that was realizing that I had to forgive myself for all I put myself through.
I had to realize in giving up on myself I was causing those I loved Immense pain.
I knew I was hurting my loved ones, but rather than dealing with my actual issues I let those feeling fuel my self loathing, my insecurity, my hope ending anxiety.
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I want to live a life that is worth sharing. In spite of all my failing those who love me had faith in the person I could become. Their love fanned the embers in my heart back into a fire.
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I revel in it as it fills me with a warmth like the kind that soaks into almost frostbitten limbs.
I accept the warmth that slowly bleeds from almost unbearable discomfort to exsquist heat. No one is ever beyond hope.
I'm still relearning how to not give in to my emotions.
I am still relearning to take people at their word about how they feel about me.
I still need to learn to trust myself. These faults don't define me, nor do they condemn me as someone beneath love.
I need to give those my inaction hurt the respect and space they deserve.
I need to give myself the patience I show others.
I need to live in the present, not the future or the past.
I need to free myself of my harmful misconceptions and assumptions.
I believe everyone can have a rich life full of happiness.
I dream awake. That's a life I want. In their own way everyone wants that, and so dear reader from the bottom of my heart thank you.
I'm sorry for the struggles you have had to endure. You are strong enough to to survive it all.
I am certain there are people in this world that will love once they get to know you. You can love many and be free of doubt.
I thank you dear reader.
Live.
